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Wellp. I've never really done a blog before, so bear with me, here goes!


Raising support has definitely been a humbling experience. I'm not one to ask for help--I think we're all like that to an extent, believing we could do it on our own--but God gave us the Body of Christ for a reason...

"...So God has put the body together such that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity. This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other. If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad. all of you together are Christ's body, and each of you is part of it."
--1 Corinthians 12:24-27

Thank you for being the parts of the Body that surround me=]

So how has this been humbling? Well, let me tell you!

The trip this Spring costs 1800$ and the first deposit of 150$ was due at the beginning of November. I thought I would have all I needed for that deposit by then, but when I only had 102$ the day 150$ was due, I got a little nervous.

I called my mom to ask if she could somehow get my allowance to me so that I could add it to the amount I had and have enough to pay the full 150$, but in so doing, I felt like I was taking matters into my own hands and not trusting that God would provide.

I knew God would provide, so I prayed that God would lay it on someone's heart to tap me on the shoulder and give me 48$. I prayed that he had already laid it on someone's heart to give me 48$ for the trip and I would find it in my mailbox.

I checked my mail to find it empty and when no one tapped me on the shoulder for anything I had to suck it up and just turn in what I had.

I went to Dr. McWhite's office (he is my team leader and the one in charge of all the LIGHT teams) and gave him my 102$, crying and trying to explain that I just didn't have the extra 48$ and that I would get it to him asap. He just looked at me and said he had seen God's provision before and knew it was coming.

I left his office feeling embarassed for crying and upset that I didn't experience God's provision in the way I thought he would do it.

Meanwhile, my mom had put some money into my checking account. She called me to let me know it was there and I bitterly said thanks and bye, still feeling like I had taken things into my own hands.

I got back to my room and checked online banking to see that my mom had put in more than enough for me to be able to pay the rest of the 48$. I was overwhelmed. How could I have been so blind? I was expecting "God-sized" things I thought, but God doesn't have a size--sizes are something we give to things to measure them. God is immeasurable--infinitely huge...infinitely tiny...I had defined "God-sized" as something big--I thought God would provide and I would just be overwhelmed by the bigness of the act. However, He provided in a way that I didn't see coming--through my mom. He laid my need on her heart and provided for me through her.

God works in big and small ways. That day I was humiliated--something I had prayed for, humility. God humbled me and showed me that He is in control. He knows what he's doing. He provided in more ways than just financially that day--I also was provided a dose of humility and a new understanding of how He works. =]

"And the same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Now all glory to God our Father forever and ever! Amen."--Philippians 4:19-20